I keep spiral notebooks and writing papers all around my home and office, and in my car. I can go for weeks without writing a single word. Then suddenly, like an avalanche, a moment hits, and I can’t stop writing. It might be for a minute or it might be for a week — I just write until there’s nothing more to say. Sometimes I write it once, but other times I have to write it over and over, or in big letters, or in tiny print, or spread across the page.
It just depends what comes out.
Where do Messages Come From?
Do you keep a journal? It’s okay if you don’t — a lot of people don’t. I wouldn’t call what I do journaling, even. My thoughts flow out in other ways that don’t involve writing, too. Removing the rules and the pressure gives me the freedom to trust whatever this process is. It just is.
Like a month ago, something blurry was moving around in my brain. It popped out of my head onto my notebook, as this:
Stop running. Start living.
It actually didn’t even mean anything to me at the time. So, I just wrote it a few times, and didn’t think about it again.
Until recently, when something called me back to that page. I’ve looked at that silly page every day for the last 2 weeks:
Stop running. Start living.
The words look really loud to me now.
Living in The Moment
I realized I haven’t been living in the present. For at least a couple of years.
Though I’m embarrassed to admit it (I should know better…there’s that should again) I’d been moving way too quickly towards goals and plans again. I was missing things, waiting for things, delaying things, rushing through things. I’ve done this before, and darn it, I did it again. I’ve been looking so far ahead that I forgot to feel the ground right underneath my feet.
Weird thing, or maybe not so weird — I hurt my leg recently. It’s an injury that has kept me off my feet for the last 8 weeks. I’ve been completely unable to do all those things I was trying to do, reach all those things I was trying to reach. I can’t move forward right now, even if I wanted to.
There’s that message again.
Sometimes things come into our awareness for reasons we cannot understand. Or sometimes they’re so obvious we wonder why we hadn’t noticed them before. This one didn’t make sense until it hit me on the head, er, on the leg. So, I’ve recommitted to start living from this moment forward. Because running isn’t possible. But, also, because I no longer want to.
To noticing, connecting, awakening…
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